"Something's Up" In America's Big Berg
Selected Poems from The Alaska Mystery Collection
and The Tree Series
by Paula Marie Rose
Shannon and I had been been best friends since I was 14, which totaled 29 years of secrets and adventures shared. During the June 2007 interview; those who were asking me questions relayed some information that they claimed came from her, and was not what I would expect my best friend to say about me. Their statements, and a few other things that she had said and done over the six previous months, started to add up.
Perhaps those interviewing me lied, but I knew the people I was sitting with very well. Those on the other end of the wire asking questions knew everything about me; right down to the minutia of the contents deposited in my toilet, and apparently;
I use it more frequently than others do. There was even a brief discussion as to how I wipe! Unbelievable. When I get hired on somewhere; I refuse to waste my time watching another wipe their ass. I'm satisfied that most of us do, and it doesn't need to be discussed, or filmed.
The contents of my computer, and the trips and travels of my car were also brought up. I was questioned about them by the "Feeders," and yes indeed; there was more than a passing interest in the fairly recent purchases that I had made from Babeland.com. The Feeders had apparently been observing me while I was enjoying my purchases; in what should have been the privacy of my room.
To the male Feeders; I hope that you learned something about women, and how to please one, by watching me. I've had my share of lousy lovers, and if I've dissatisfied any; I'm game to improve. No wonder our country is in such a state of "disarray," if the Fed Peeps are busy watching Paula the Porn Star in a solo performance; instead of tracking down real threats to National Security. Remember! The dirt I'm carrying isn't mine; it belongs to "Nobody."
Female Feeders, find your credit card and get busy! You'll be glad you did.
I have less than scientifically deduced that men find our pulsating pleasure wands to be intimidating, and simultaneously enviable. We gals already knew that, but Big John never says No, and he's ready when we are! Have a look at their site guys; there's something for everyone; including straight men. Click here, and Let's Get It On!! www.babeland.com
Can I get a $250,000 HHS grant to conduct a study? I'd like to purchase every item that Babeland.com sells, and test drive them with a great looking and sexually adventurous male Fed. Film and FOIA That!!! It'll give a whole new meaning in Fedspeak to the term "Up Yours!"
Without that tape, I have no proof to present. But with that level of detail floating through the ether; either the whole world has X ray vision and Psychic Abilities, or I was indeed under surveillance and had been for some time; as one present and those receiving the feed, stated and confirmed. I'll take their word for it; make your own decision, Readers. I couldn't believe what I was hearing; the questions and the glasses of wine kept coming. I'm amazed that I recall as much of that evening as I do. "Nobody" is in shock themselves; apparently most others who have the same type of "interview" experience that I was subjected to, do not. That was an indirect confirmation from a "Leaf," I'm taking his word on that.
I will post other emails between Shannon and me. I found it very strange and out of character for her to never ask me for details about what I was trying to solve. Shannon has a very inquisitive mind; enjoys people watching, analyzing human behaviors and interactions, and using investigative techniques to solve problems. For her to not ask questions about; or to offer to assist in solving a puzzle which had damaged our 29 year relationship was out of character for her, but understandable.
Overall, I found much of her wording to be very stilted, as if an outside party would be reading it. I'll add notations or highlight such areas when I post those emails. An example below is the statement: "Eric and I are not family..."
which technically is true, but very unnecessary to state in writing; as all who were CC'd and I know that fact. Eric and I were married for 13 years, and Shannon and I had been best friends for 29. Both of them were closer to me than my own blood relations. They have been, and will remain for the foreseeable future, the listed beneficiaries on some of my financial accounts. I provided her copies of the beneficiary forms when I filled them out in 2006.
Her reference below in the November 7, 2007 email stating that I hadn't had contact for 3 months with family or friends was very puzzling. My various inboxes and outboxes have numerous emails between myself and several family members, friends, businesses that I ordered items from, etc. during every month of 2007. Below is a September 11 and 12, 2007 exchange in which Shannon is a recipient. She did not contact me while I was in Juneau during my September 2007 visit.
Gail sure seemed to be interested in those "Shadowheart" movie set photos, and I found a few which are now posted under the Disclaimer section. I found online today that there is a movie named "Shadowheart" by Dean Alioto slated for release in June 2008, according to www.imdb.com. I immediately recognized the name of Alioto, as the "Leaf" named Matt mentioned the name of Joe Alioto in an email back in February. (posted in the Emails from Leaves section under Matt.) Matt never mentioned that name again.
gail wrote: To: email@example.com, Mark, val, eric, ews, Claire,
Subject: Re: Online Public Facilities!
Date: Wed, 12 Sep 2007 08:08:19 -0400
Mark are you writing this down? The only thing that could make Paula use "Public Facilities" was the computer...who knew?
When you can Paula, please do send the photos of me with the "gentlemen" from the western set Shadowheart.
I am looking forward to KW and lots of fish friend fun. and friends and family too!
Whoo hoo! Love, Gail
From: Paula Rose <firstname.lastname@example.org>
To: gail, Mark, Val ,, eric >; Eric ; Claire; Beth; Shannon
Sent: Tue, 11 Sep 2007 8:32 pm
Subject: Online sort of in AK
At a Public (yep, really!!) internet terminal in J town. Seems to work for email, my computer virused out and our network was hacked or something at my last place. Visiting here with Claire for a bit, then on to more adventures. Staying in hotels, as EWS doesn't feel like having a houseguest No cell phone, I'm going to be like Gail and get a land line when I get to a new place in the future. Doing my own thing and enjoying life, GOD Bless America! Have fun at the KW Sept. party!! PR
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|Date:||Thu, 8 Nov 2007 12:25:26 -0800 (PST)|
|From:|| "Shannon > Add to Address Book Add Mobile Alert |
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|Subject:||Re: A sunny Sunday|
|To:||"Paula Rose" <>|
|CC:||"Eric >, "Eric, Anna, "Mark >, gail ,Valerie|
Hi Paula -
It is unfortunate that you find the missing
person report so funny.
I assure you Val, Claire, Eric, Anna, Mark, Gail and
I did not find any of it amusing. We were trying to
ascertain who would be the best person to initiate the
report. (It is best done by a family member). I
provided a current photo for it. Yes, contrary to
your beliefs, we (sibs included) were truly worried
about you and your well-being).
We will never know if you were traveling, were in an
alcohol rehab facility, were holed up in your bedroom
or any other conclusion we could jump to. Only you
know what the true circumstances were. As I mentioned
previously, I am comfortable with my "level of over
reaction" exhibited on your behalf. I did what a good
friend who loves you would do and I'd do the same
again in a heartbeat.
Eric and myself are not family, Val had enough going
on with moving south and Anna (having previous
experience in MP reports) said she'd do it and she did
(Jewel told Anna she filed one as well). I know
Val/Anna/Gail/Eric spoke to Jewel, Steve, Lian, Jerry
and others out of concern for you. All of them
inicated you were behaving strangely and out of
I know Anna was in Juneau (on her cruise) and was with
Beth when she was talking to the PD, so I'm sure Beth
can confirm these events for you as my word is so
You, being the MP, are entitled to your very own copy
of the MP report, just contact the Tarzana PD for it.
Val contacted a number of PDs trying to get the right
I don't find any of this "interesting" as you do.
Even serial killers get a chance to defend themselves
in their day in court. Apparently I do not.
Do not move to Juneau with the intention of solving
this "mystery" on my account. It really isn't
necessary. What is done is done. I will not be able
to convince you that I did not betray you. If your
belief that I betrayed you caused all of this to
happen then I no longer wish to have such a huge
responsibility. Ceasing contact with your girls due
to upset with me is wrong. Upsetting and worrying
them is unforgiveable.
Just as you no longer trust me, the reverse is true. I
no longer trust your judgment and I do not wish to be
vulnerable to further hurt. You know all of my
secrets, just as I know what you have chosen to tell
me. Apparently secrets have become ammunition in some
sort of battle that I wish no part of. Intimacy and
trust are not easy for either of us and will be even
more difficult as a result of all this drama.
I have received nothing positive since July for the
privilege of "being your friend". Only a lot of
negatives, I've devoted way to much time, worry,
effort and emotion to this whole "chain reaction" as
you put it. Terry and my kids deserve better as do I.
I am forwarding copies to all involved as this ends my
involvement in your life.
Good luck, be happy, enjoy your terrific girls and
remember life is short.
I've enjoyed and appreciated our good times, thank
you for the memories. Be well.
|Date:||Wed, 7 Nov 2007 19:15:00 -0800 (PST)|
|Subject:||Re: A sunny Sunday|
|To:||"Paula Rose" <email@example.com>|
Hey Paula -
I'm glad to hear from you, I didn't figure I would as
no ones likes criticism.
Why didn't you (don't you now) ask me if I made
whatever statement I supposedly made to
this(these)credible person(s)? I'm not going to lie
I also feel betrayed that you'd believe a "credible"
source over me in anything. I can't imagine what I'd
have to gain by discussing you and dooming our
friendship in the process.
I hope you solve the puzzle but do keep in mind there
are two sides to every story and as you mentioned
everyone has an agenda. My agenda has always been to
remain best friends for life with you through the good
times and the bad. I suppose the good are in the
past and the bad are currently occurring.
It would appear that the friendship meant so little
to you that you'd take someone's word and pull the
plug without giving me any chance to defend myself or
let me know what I am needing to defend.
IRRELEVANT PARAGRAPH OMITTED BY PMR>
Is this alleged "information I divulged" something
known only to me? If not, you should widen the
Why would you cut all contact with all friends,
family, children etc. for a period of 3 months
if you are upset with something I am accused
Gotta go oversee the homework.
--- Paula Rose <firstname.lastname@example.org> wrote:
> Hi Shannon,
> Glad to hear everyone in your nest is feeling better
> and that your fall festivities are in full swing.
> Inconsistencies abound in this imperfect world.
> When credible people make statements which they
> claim came from you, and they are believable in
> scope; I felt betrayed and that our friendship was
> meaningless to you. The best way for me to figure
> out these inconsistencies is by being back in
> Juneau, and question the sources again to find out
> what their payoff is.
> That said, we appear to have a long term friendship
> with a large dark cloud on it. I apologize for any
> stress you may have suffered by the drama and
> ridiculous posturing of my family and whoever else
> was involved in this most recent charade.
> Each person is responsible for their own actions
> and reactions, myself included. I may have acted in
> haste by listening to the words of others, and when
> I find out their motive for saying them, I shall be
> able to offer an explanation or apology to you.
> Have a super week!
> Love, PR
> Shannon <> wrote:
> Hello - We've got pumpkin head all the way around
> my house (just in time for Halloween!). I'm applying
> Zicam just now as I type. It was a rough weekend.
> At least they felt well enough for school/work
> The kids are really exicted about being here for the
> festivities as we've been gone on cruises the last 2
> Halloweens. We saw Claire at the Ghostwalk on Sat.
> People here have sure got into the spirit of
> decorating their houses, go consumerism! It looks
> like Mark is having a good time at Fantasy Fest.
> Erik said it was in the 90s there last week when he
> arrived (work meetings). He left Fairbanks where it
> was 10 degrees and hit LA where it was 90, shock to
> the system!
> Your dealings with your girls are none of my
> (of course I love all of you and want everyone to be
> happy and hated to see them and me worried and
> I don't really know what you are referring
to about the strange goings on in Juneau or
what puzzle you hope to solve. So I can't really
offer assistance in that regard.
> Going from prounouncing you are never talking to
> anyone in Juneau again to moving here seems a bit
> I do feel you acted badly toward me and that I
> better treatment. It was as painful as getting
> by a significant other would have been. You do not
> sound willing to take any responsibility in any of
> this. As a result, I will be proceeding very
> cautiously in future relationships. I have enough
> stressors in my life without unexplained drama.
> Happy Halloween and enjoy your heatwave. Hope the
> fire stays south of your area. It is a balmy 38
> degrees and raining at the moment.
> Love you
> --- Paula Rose wrote:
> > Lattice work was a success!!
> > As the saying goes, one has to be able to look in
> > the mirror. We all make Choices, and being
> > comfortable with them is most important.
> > Suicide? Not a chance.
> > Trouble in what?
> > All the feigned "concern and worry" from my sibs,
> > etc. was a crock. How unfortunate that they
> > you into it. They and I have had months without
> > regular contact for most of our lives. Anna's
> > missing persons report she says she filed was a
> > waste of Police time, being as I was physically in
> > residence at Jewel's house most of the time I was
> > supposedly "missing."
> > I do regret that I didn't purchase phone card to
> > call my girls, but I thought they were receiving
> > emails. Finally bought a new phone a month or so
> > ago, it was kinda nice not having one!! I had
> > countless technical computer hardware and software
> > malfunctions, and internet security failures the
> > last several months at Jewel's house. Still have
> > many, but fewer.
> > I've reconsidered all the facts, some of which
> > seemed credible at first glance, and decided that
> > living in J town will provide me the opportunity
> > check things out in depth, and most importantly,
> > spend time with Val and Claire. When things don't
> > add up, I start asking questions. That tends to
> > make some people varying degrees of uncomfortable,
> > as if they are hiding something. Very strange,
> > indeed. Perhaps you will be able to share your
> > expertise in word wizardry and law enforcement
> > techniques so I can solve the puzzle. Of course,
> > your choosing to say No is fine.
> > On the lighter side, any AF or TK sightings? I
> > almost had a date in FL a few weeks ago with David
> > (he's the one I flew to Miami with for the day to
> > have his plane serviced a year or so ago, and an
> > fling of Anna's), but I decided to leave before we
> > had time to get together again. Saw his new condo
> > project in the works, WOW. And few buyers in
> > according to him. Hope it works out. Don't know
> > why he was ever interested in me as "dating
> > material" but some men find that sister thing
> > intriguing.
> > Love, PR
> > Shannon wrote:
> > Hello Again -
> > Happy Latticing, it is hard to believe what LA
> > real estate is going for, wish I had spare $ to do
> > some flipping, we are getting pretty good now at
> > remodeling. But then everyone is doing it there,
> > guess that is why prices are declining as they are
> > here. Guess the substandard loans didn't help
> > either.
> > I am comfortable with my "level of over reaction".
> > I
> > would have been forever uncomfortable had I done
> > nothing and had you been in trouble or in danger
> > committing suicide (as you have mentioned has been
> > contemplated in the past).
> > Since we did not have a falling out (that I am
> > of) and you declared in July you wished no further
> > contact with me or "anyone in Juneau", it is not a
> > situation I ever thought I'd be placed in so I am
> > unclear what I should or should not do.
> > "Minding my own business" would be easy with
> > else.
> > If the roles were reversed I'd hope you would not
> > just
> > say okay and cease contact but would be curious
> > enough
> > to wonder why I was acting out of character and
> > ending
> > a 30 year friendship and not staying in contact
> with > my children.
> Dropping out is certainly your perogative as it is
> anyones. You are in the drivers seat for setting
> boundaries on friendships. But I am glad to be
> hearing from you again and I hope to continue to.
> Hugs SM
> --- Paula Rose wrote:
> > Hi Shan,
> > It's warm and very windy here, too dusty lately to
> > go walking wearing contacts, even with sunglasses.
> > New dog, huh? Jade (aka Jewel) would most likely
> > have been delighted to give you Diva, her black
> > palmer. A bit of a barker, however. A
> > characteristic of that breed.
> > The level of overreaction by everyone to my being
> > unreachable by phone or email for a short time was
> > truly amazing, considering you had my physical
> > address. That entire setup was one great act
> > out by all; worthy of Academy Awards. You should
> > have seen Gail in action, I played her to the
> > For the record, she gives herself credit of some
> > "psychic hit" for finding my address. But hey,
> > everyone has their own agenda. You would have
> > it, right up your people watching ally. The
> > keeps turning and the piper keeps on playing. Who
> > needs TV?
> > Val said she probably won't be working at the
> > this upcoming session either. She thinks their is
> > probably someone else already selected for the
> > position she had. I suggested she try other
> > senate/reps. but with classes and all , she'll
> > likely work at the adult shop/mailboxes.
> > Out to help the new share put up some lattice.
> > Love, PR